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Perfume Sweet

When I was a preteen and teen, I knew the power of lament. Of casting and pouring, and breathing in the Word. And yet, it’s then, much like Hannah at first was at the Temple, I was met with accusing tongues and stern disapproval. I was turned away in my pain and grief. I was told there was something wrong with me. And yet, I was worshipping God from the depths of my soul through the injustice I saw before me.

Rather than believe my God, I agreed with the lies and fled who God had made me to be. Then one day, He overwhelmed me in His palpable peace, when my Mum was given just 3 months to live. No words brought me home. Just the Spirit of God speaking through His presence. He had come to lift the weight of a burden that was never mine to carry.

Words of death can go much deeper than we think. It has been almost 5 years since I gave my heart back to God. But God is still patiently and lovingly breaking me free from the pain and shame of my past. He is lifting the weight of each and every single lie spoken over me.

As I ran in the forest, seeking His face, the tears streamed as I heard Him remind me yet again that it breaks His heart. That it hurts Him, when I turn away ashamed, believing the injustice done is my weight to carry, my punishment. When I believe my weakness is ugly to Him and wrong. When in fact my laments and my cries for truth to be unveiled, for restoration, healing and unity in His Body, are and have always been, beautiful to Him. For they are His perfume sweet.

It is there, in and through my lamenting, I am being conformed (sýnmorphḗ – https://biblehub.com/greek/4862.htm and https://biblehub.com/greek/3444.htm):

4862 sýn (a primitive preposition, having no known etymology) – properly, identified with, joined close-together in tight identification; with (= closely identified together).

3444 morphḗ – properly, form (outward expression) that embodies essential(inner) substance so that the form is in complete harmony with the inner essence.

to His image.

 

If you too are struggling beneath a weight you know that is not yours to carry, I pray that my poem and this song will bless you. I pray that as you pour out your own lament, you will deep down know He is joining you unto Himself. For He is the God who sees us, knows us and weeps for and with us. May He release His perfume sweet in and through each one of us:

Perfume Sweet, A Spoken Word

 

 

11 Comments Post a comment
  1. “You’ve never been ashamed,” …. oh so very sweet. To know He is our true perfume, birthing beauty and life right in the center of our own weaknesses. Thank You Jesus. I am clinging so tightly to Him also.

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    March 27, 2019
  2. Athira #

    Hey its just amazing, Actually I just thought about the verse..
    Philippians 1:20- “I eagerly expect and hope that I will in no way be ashamed, but will have sufficient courage so that now as always Christ will be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death”.

    After I just read the verse and went to my blog and got notified on this post and also Bettie’s comment too..

    #Feeling Blessed and Thankful

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    March 27, 2019
    • So precious. Thank you for sharing that. I will be praying that verse now. ❤

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      March 27, 2019
      • Athira #

        I would like to follow your writings…
        Prayers!

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        March 27, 2019
  3. I always love hearing you read your poems, Anna. I’m so glad God loves us so much and He never gives up even when we run. May He keep pouring His love on you as He continues to heal you from the lies that come to haunt you! He is greater and is full of mercy and truth. Blessings to you with much love, dear sister! xoxo

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    March 27, 2019
  4. Anna, I found you! Thank you, Athira, for sharing her post. Your journey is one of such hope, Anna. I am thanking Jesus as I type for His strong presence in your healing. Have a blessed evening with your littles. In Christ, Julie

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    March 27, 2019
    • Thanks for visiting, Julie and for your sweet encouragement and prayers for me too. Our girls are sleeping soundly 😊. It’s late evening here already.

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      March 27, 2019
  5. Your words come to life, even more, when you speak them out loud. Your story is a testimony of loss, life, pain, and hope. Mostly, it points us to the redeeming power of God in your life. Thank you for opening your heart through these words.

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    March 29, 2019
    • Thank you for your sweet encouragement, Mary. It is a gift to me.

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      March 29, 2019

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